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6th Cooking Attempt [Accidental Video] Forward dated to the 13th Hour

*Failed Filter to the IT*

[The COMP turns on to show Yukiko looking less than specatular; she's been letting out some pent up frustration on some monsters around the Virgo District and she may have bitten off more than she could chew. Needless to say, there is a beaten up and bloodied priestess on the network.]

I'm sorry...but if anyone was wondering where I've...been...I'm okay. Just a little...

[She stops and the device falls from her hand, landing on the ground. Not even a second after that, she too collapses and blacks out. The feed is still going but Yukiko isn't moving an inch. Someone might wanna stop by Virgo before the monsters see her.]

((OOC: No responses will come from her obviously so if anyone wants to talk with her, they need to see her in person.))

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[In comes Shepard once Chie comes out, leaning against the wall and giving her a stern look--guess who isn't too happy with your rashness earlier, but still concerned for her health.]

Hey. You holding up alright?

[By this time, Yukiko is looking down at her hands. She can't bare to look at anyone without getting emotional. But she does nod in reply.]

Good. The last thing I need is you being too hurt to keep going.

So, care to give an explanation for why you went out into the 13th Hour? I'm all ears.

[She normally goes out during that time in order to get stronger. There's not really a place to train for it anyway.]

I normally go out during it. But I didn't realize how tired I must've been before.

[It didn't help that she's been feeling like on auto pilot since someone left. It made it worse with the Anoli, inn duties, school, and two morons out there and not having a damn clue about what happened to them. Hint: it's the other versions of bowlcut and junes prince.]

[She can definitely feel you on the Anoli issue. Not so much on the rest of them, though.] Tired, huh?

And time off wasn't gonna do anything for that feeling, I take it?

[She shook her head.]

I tried but it didn't work.

[It's so bad that she didn't finish her take out from Rise. It was fried tofu for crying out loud! Her favorite!]

[So she must've gone out there to try and get rid of some empty feeling she can't shake off.

Well, that just won't sit with her for long.

Shepard walks over to her and gives her a soft pat on the back; comforting her's the least she could do now that she's in.]

The least you could do is hang in there, kid. Your friends wouldn't want to see you like this, I'm sure.

I didn't tell them because I didn't want them to worry. They have enough going on...I didn't want to add on to it.

[She's supposed to be strong, she wanted to be for everyone. Yukiko's not allowed to break down for that reason.]

[Being strong doesn't equal taking everything on by yourself.]

...So what you mean to say is, you don't want to ask for help because they have too much on their plate.

You know, I'm not seeing the logic behind this when they're your friends, and would probably do what they can if you just asked them.

[If she just asked them...but wasn't that something she's been doing all this time? Somehow depending on them too much to do anything. She never had the leader skills, just ended up following everyone else to have any words to say on the matter. It wouldn't be fair to anyone.]

It is when I do nothing but ask them.

[She kept staring at her knees, gripping her blankets.]

I don't say what's wrong because there are people who have gone through a lot worse than myself. It would be selfish to hear my problems when they may seem nothing compared to anyone else. So I keep it inside...I don't want to depend on everyone to rescue me anymore.

[That little voice, her shadow, was still present in her. The idea of wanting a prince to come and take her away. Yukiko wanted to change that so that someday, she would be able to be dependable to others instead of just herself.]

[That does it.

Let's just say she's in for a good hard talk about what it means to be dependable, and she's in for a lesson that she might not forget anytime soon.]

There's no such thing as 'a lot worse' when it comes to suffering. It's just not something you quantify, not something you give a value to and write off as less terrible than what others go through.

[It didn't matter to her in the least -- whether her ragtag misfits have endured having family charge off into their own deadly profession, being betrayed, being used as an experiment, having to hunt down their own children because of genetic defects, or having family that basically lost their shit and turned the entire female crew into mindless slaves, she didn't think of it as anywhere worse than her own experience--it was still suffering to Shepard, and it was still something she was glad to have had the chance to rectify, no matter the means necessary.]

Besides, trying to be strong for everyone's sake and tackling things on your own is only going to make them worry even harder once they take notice.

[...There was a pang of feeling like a hypocrite in the back of her mind once she said that, but she just couldn't place her finger on why...]

Edited 2013-04-16 06:34 (UTC)

[Maybe it's her mind yelling 'TAKE YOUR OWN DAMN ADVICE'. But it's that sudden moment for the priestess when something just kind of...snapped. The memories of the Anoli attack came to the forefront of her mind as she remembered seeing how injured Yosuke and Naoto were...how she could only watch in horror as Yu took that attack meant for her and damn near killed him. It was bad if Izanami had to try and comfort her in the hospital after her little break down.

She didn't know why it started now but Yukiko pressed her face into her knees, hugging them tightly as she tried to hold in the incoming tears and sobs.

Spoilers: it doesn't help at all.]

[It wouldn't be surprising if someone called her out on this later. But that's beside the point...with the way things are going now, she needs someone to be there until she calms down. That motherly presence, if you will.

Shepard places her arms around the poor girl in a soft hug, waiting for her to calm down. It's the least she could do.]

[Yukiko didn't know weither to be shocked or thankful for that. She never thought Shepard would be that kind of woman to do such a thing. Guess there's more than meets the eye to every person in the city.]

[Well, for all her habits of being hard on others, she still cares. Being a soldier doesn't always mean being an emotionless killing machine.]

...Look. If you can't ask them for help, then you can ask me. I won't ever judge you for it, alright?

[And that's what she really needed right now. Her friends wouldn't judge her but it would be like the overwhelming urge to smother her with good feelings. And sadly, that isn't what Yukiko wanted. Just...someone to talk to that wasn't knee deep in friendship feels and not get clouded.

She simply nods in understanding.]

...thank you.

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6th Cooking Attempt [Accidental Video] Forward dated to the 13th Hour

After Chie pays her visit. Let's not make the visiting hours even more cramped. :|

good idea :|

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i...has no crying icons

I don't either, sob

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