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[She's been here for nearly ten days now. It's very strange, and different. She's not used to feeling this... isolated. Back home, she'd always travelled with Roxas and Axel, and even at Disney Castle it always seemed more... together. If she'd felt lonely, or had a nightmare or something, she could go find one of her friends. Not quite so simple here - the only person she considered a friend she had from home didn't... didn't remember. Not really.

Sure, it was for a good cause, being here. But that didn't mean it was easy.]

It's really strange... there's a lot we have here that we don't have at home, but... there opposite is true too. And...

[Ugh no, this isn't helping. She's probably not even making sense.]

Sorry. I guess I don't know what I'm trying to say.

So... does... anybody have friends they miss who are back home?

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[Xion... ;n;]

I think many of us do, really...

[Meaning yes, yes she does. Her first thought goes to Ven, her little brother, but then there's Master Eraqus, all of her friends she met on her Journey (including the three children who would one day take over the role of protecting the worlds), and then there were those she met in dreams and the other city of perpetual night...]

There are too many for me to even count.

That's a lot of people to miss...

[She can't imagine missing that many, she only has... Roxas, Axel, Riku, Kairi, Mickey, Minnie, Daisy, Chip, D- okay maybe she had a lot to miss too. But still.

She remembers when someone else asked this question a little while ago, and she'd tried to answer then, but she really hadn't known what to say. Maybe Aqua would have better advice than she did.]

What... what do you do, when you miss them a lot?

Mm... Maybe it is.

[She sounds almost wistful, listless as she admits it... but it's something that's been weighing on her for quite some time. Yes, even before meeting Philemon.]

I'm afraid the answer's different for everyone, Xion. Though, it doesn't hurt to talk about the ones you miss and share those memories you have with them.

[Because really, that's all she has of them, now. ...Also yes, that was an invitation to come over.]

...Would you like me to come over for a little while?

[Because someone sounds lonely.]

[Xion makes a small, noncommittal noise, trying to ignore how her eyes watered some, rather grateful that the video feed wasn't on. It made sense that it wouldn't be that simple but... She sometimes felt like she didn't know herself that much, she can't even begin to guess how to help herself for something like this. She wasn't even sure if sharing memories would work because... the one time she'd really been out of Axel and Roxas' company for any stretch of time was while she'd been travelling with Riku and she and Riku had only really spoken so much. But again... she still didn't know what would help. If she did...

Well, she wouldn't be making this message.

Visiting sounds nice though. Visiting means not being by herself in a tiny bare room, having someone else to talk to and maybe even distracting herself a little. But mostly feeling less alone.]

S-sure. Or I can come to your room.

[Either or. She scrubs at her eyes with the palm of her hand.]

[Xion...

She paused for a brief moment, simply listening at the silence. It made sense that she wouldn't like to be alone, because that's part of being a Keyblade wielder: they were always weaker when isolated, even though so many would never truly understand the burden they carry in trying to protect the worlds they love.]

Alright. I'll be right there.

[Aqua doesn't say much else over the network, but she knocks on the door two minutes later.]

Edited 2012-11-01 21:03 (UTC)

Okay.

[And in those two minutes, Xion will be rubbing at her eyes and trying to hide any evidence of... emotional "outbursts". Maybe in time she'd be a bit more open with her feelings but for now... Aqua is still a stranger in some respects, despite Xion knowing of and looking for her back home.

When Xion answers the door, only the slightest redness around her eyes hints at anything.]

Hey.

[Outburst schmoutburst. Displays of emotion were just that and completely fine. At least in her opinion. though she can understand why some were more hesitant than others... She herself had been at one point, and still was to some.

She smiles faintly, letting the kindness shine through. Xion needed it.] Hey.

[She looked a little tired (and maybe still has a few bits of frost in her hair), but she holds out something. ...wait is that a scooped version of sea salt ice cream.]

I thought you could use one of these.

[Xion's eyes go wide when they see the ice cream. The color is way too familiar to be anything else. She accepts the ice cream and stares at it for a few moments, before looking back up at Aqua]

How did you...

[They'd talked before sure but she hadn't mentioned liking sea-salt, so far as she can remember...]

[Aqua only gives a knowing look and a slightly bigger smile.]

A little bird told me.

[A white lie, really-- it had been one of the children who had told her about the wonders of sea-salt and asked her to try it once in a dream.]

The rest...came down to a few too many royalberry licks and magic.

[She makes a silly face at that one. Oh, she'd forgotten she'd get brain freeze if she ate it too fast.]

Edited 2012-12-20 03:46 (UTC)

[Xion frowns in puzzlement. Little bird...? Though the latter part gets her to smile a bit. After a moment she looks back down at the ice cream. She and Roxas and Axel didn't get to eat as much anymore, because Twilight Town was too dangerous and there weren't many places that sold it.

As much as she'd love to start licking even now, they're still standing in her doorway]

Um...

[She steps back]

You can come in, if you want to.

[There's... not much though... maybe they'd be better off in the living room area...]

[Maybe one day Xion would get the reference.]

It's a small joke; meaning either someone once told me, or it's a lucky guess.

[We do not mention the nickname Hades gave her before she kicked his sorry toga-wearing butt back into the Underworld, okay.]

...Wouldn't we be better off in the living room area?

[No she doesn't have a mind link, she just knows that her apartment is small, too.]

Ohhh...

[See now that made sense. ... now she has to wonder though... did that mean somebody told her? But she was in the Realm of Darkness... unless it was that other place she'd mentioned?

Well, she could ask about it in a bit. Instead she nods, a little sheepishly.]

Y-yeah. Probably.

[And with that she'll let the door to her room close behind her as she heads over. It wasn't too far, at least. Disney Castle was bigger.]

[She smiled a bit privately to herself. if asked, she'd probably tell her at some time. Until then though, she would walk beside the younger girl.]

...Yeah. Just two or three.

_{[The 'three' is said rather painfully.]}

All of them would be pretty shocked by this place, I think.

[She catches the emphasis on 'three,' but doesn't comment. It feels like it'd be rude to ask]

I guess this place must be pretty different from home, huh?

[Or at least what his friends are used to]

It is. The demons are a given part of what's different, but that nearly seems little when you look at, well, the sky.

_{[Which he does. Today it's a startling bright blue again, with only a few distant white wisps of clouds. And he's been here long enough to be smart enough to not look at the sun.]}

They'd probably get sunburns as bad as I did. Heheh.

Is there something different about the sky in your world?

[She's been to a lot of worlds but all of them... they all had the same sort of skies, that she could see. She never really thought they could look different.]

[Friends he misses? Of course he has them. There hasn't been a single day spent in this world without Yuusei thinking back to his teammates whom he left in the most critical moment; and even though there was obviously nothing he could have done to prevent that, it still made him feel a bit guilty.]

I do.

[A short pause.]

... That's why I need to go back.

I miss my brothers.

[Huh, she'd forgotten about that]

Sometimes your family are your friends, huh...

[General "you". For her it was more the other way, though. Her friends were her family.]

Yes... very much.

Huh...

[Xion pauses, a little unsure. She's not... really that good with talking with people doesn't know well.]

They... must mean a lot to you.

They really do. I hope they're all right.

Was... something bad going on in your world?

[Seeing as they could go right back to the moment that they left... She'd be lying if she didn't admit to worrying about Roxas and Axel too though, even though she knew the same applied to her...]

Well, no, but... I was caring for a young girl there, and now she's all alone with no one to make sure she's all right.

[Unfortunately, Nano doesn't know that part yet. She thinks the Professor is all alone with no one to care for her.]

[Yeah, Xion's starting to get that impression.]

She'll probably be fun until you get back, right? Since... time stops while we're here.

[At least, if what they've heard is to be believed. Xion's optimistic on the whole but still worries sometimes...]

Edited (wrong icon orz) 2012-11-05 07:19 (UTC)

Time stops? You mean she won't even know I'm gone?

[ ... Wow, post. You just hit him hard in the feelings. ]

Y-yeah.

[ His voice is shaky, and he's very much unhappy with himself for letting that much show.

He isn't saying any more, though. Memories... ]

[She catches the shake, and has to wonder, even worry if she did something to upset them, or if she brought up bad memories, or something.]

Me too.

[She isn't sure if they'll reply but... well, it felt okay to admit she felt the same. It's sort of a not-quite apology]

[ Sad memories, at least. But he accepts that little not-quite apology, in his own way.

Although that reminds him... of something else he was wondering.

His mind wanders and needs vindication before he throws the thought out and wallows in self-disgust for even considering bringing him to this place of... daemons. ]

... I sort of wonder how well he'd react to being here.

Is that silly?

[ His voice is honest inquiry, even with the small self-unsure undertone: he's never... really been someplace like this, before. He sort of wants to know how his energetic friend would react to it. Sort of wishing he was here - because he's finding he prefers this place to home, in spite of the daemons and chaos.

Given, he doesn't even know if his friend's still alive, but... ]

Edited (wanted more action context) 2012-10-30 21:11 (UTC)

[There's a pause as she considers.]

I don't... think so. I think it's normal to wonder about things [Goodness knows she has a lot over the years. Axel had always encouraged her and Roxas to think for themselves and ask questions and learn. Maybe it's not quite the same but...

She shakes her head, though he can't see it]

Especially if our friends are involved, when we miss them.

Ah.

[ He at least sounds appreciative - his thoughts are vindicated, and they're going farther, now. There's an unspoken "thank you" in his tone, as well.

He's quiet, for a moment. He wants to explain why he felt the need to ask, but... ]

I'm sorry, if that was a weird question. I'm not used to this kind of... want.

[ That's half of the truth - he's not used to it because he blocked all those feelings out in the years following his departure from Frak's team. He's had them before, but he'll never understand what to do with them beyond berate himself over them.

Bonus points in that Ferrus is basically more of an asset rather then a person, to his team. Remind you of anyone, Xion? ]

I had a whole crew I miss. Honestly, it was the strangest group of people you'd never expect to work together, but it was...kind of a family, and I'm sorry I had to leave them behind.

Except G0-T0, I guess. I'm honestly not sure why I let him come along in the first place.

[Odd group of people working together, huh? It reminds her a little of her own "family." Even beyond Roxas and Axel, there's Riku and Kairi and Namine and Mickey and Pluto... and all the other residents of Disney Castle.]

I think I know what you mean.

[Still...]

Who's G0-T0?

He is...well, was...a crime boss whose noble goals and ego got ahead of his sense and ability to learn from history. I could say that for several of my crew, but he was the most blatant and nonsensical about his villainy, despite allegedly being motivated totally by logic and economics.

I have a few friends I really miss a lot... They're all very special to me, and I...

[Thinking about this seems to have significantly dropped her mood.]

I don't know what I'm going to do without them.

It's a hard thing to figure out, huh?

[It's... kind of why she made this post. Sort of.]

Yeah...

Even if it's just one of them, I want to see them again.

[Oh, she's making sense... a lot of it, in Riku's eyes.]

Maybe there are a lot of things here that aren't back home, but... those aren't the ones that matter though, are they?

[Having a bed, or a job, or temporarily not to worry about Xehanort is nice of course, but... Riku, for his part, would take Sora and Kairi's company over that any day.

He probably doesn't have to mention that though, does he?]

[Man Riku you hit everything right on the nose. She has a few things here she's never had the chance to experience - or experience for more than a few days at a time - back home, but... if it weren't for this world needing their help she'd rather go home to Roxas and Axel and everyone]

Yeah. That's probably why having them doesn't...

[She trails off, remembering this isn't the Riku she knows.

He can probably guess what she means though: having all these things here doesn't feel like it really makes up for what's missing.]

[Well, he's been known to say some weird stuff from time to time.]

It doesn't seem to mean as much, right?

[He might not be the Riku she knows and she may not be the Xion that he doesn't remember, but... he, like her, has people he misses dearly. People that he kind of wishes were here.]

Not a single fucking one.

[Not true, he misses one person but he is a pretty sweet liar.]

You don't have to miss them either, you know. They're probably just as happy without you for a while as you should be without them.

[Even though Butterfly had said something about leaving and returning to the point where they came from so... they wouldn't really be missed at all, would they? Getting in a passive aggressive cheap shot at a stranger was too good to pass up, though.]

......

[Well... that's a very cold silence while she wrestles her feelings under control again. There's enough disturbing implications in the idea of her friends not caring if she was gone that she tries not to think about it too much - she'll just get more upset.

But she did hear the same things he did when she arrived herself, so...]

They're my friends, of course I'll miss them. Besides, I thought we go back to right when we left anyway.

[So it's not like they'd even notice she was gone because... she sort of isn't. She hopes.]

I just meant that, since they aren't here and you'll go back to when you left home when you bail from here, there was no point in worrying about it.

[No he didn't.]

Fretting over it wont help anyone.

Sorry if I offended you, miss.

It's a new and different world. Think of it as a place for second chances. And even if you miss friends from back home, which I think everyone does, you also have an opportunity to make new friends here. I don't think most people's friends would want to see them spending all their time sad.

[Yeah, that... That gets her thinking, and... it's true. At least, parts of it make a lot of sense. It feels weird talking to someone who's sending text so she replies in kind]

Yeah [pause] they probably wouldn't. It's hard not to wish they were here though.

[There's one thing he said that's confusing her though]

Second chances for what?

[ He's only writing in text because this... this is the sort of thing he doesn't usually talk about aloud. ]

It is.

Second chances for anything you didn't have a chance to do back home. Different things for different people. You might get a chance to see someone you thought you'd never see again, or you might get a chance to try something you didn't have time to, though I suppose it's a first chance in that case.

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