[Well, now he knows where his Evoker went. And his axe.
He should be asleep—he wants to be asleep in the relative safety of the dorm—but the growing pressure in his head is making sleep almost impossible. He browses the network on a whim, and sees the broadcast and watches it with concern and growing anxiety that's not his. He hasn't been as cut-off from the network as Yarne has been—knows about the growing revelations that maybe they're experiencing memories that aren't quite theirs, but that certainly doesn't change how he feels. He still has to sort through the implanted memories and decide what parts of what he remembers are real and what aren't. It's harder than it should be. Because some things he wants to be true. He doesn't want to remember a world on fire, because he's seen enough of that in his too-short childhood, but he does want to be able to remember having a mother—of searching and finding her again. He wants her to be his, because there's such a large part of him that remembers never having one. But it's becoming obvious that was pretty damn false too.
Part of Shinjiro—the part of him that's still completely himself—knows he should probably go out after him, since it's obvious now who has his memories. It's something he's dreaded for awhile. But he doesn't want to. It's dangerous. It's not safe out there and he knows it because he's been out there more nights than he can count. But he's also afraid of it, even if he understands that this fear of dying, of being the last one is a probably a foreign emotion, because it clashes with so many of the things he remembers.
But he makes himself get up. He exists out of the dorm like a shadow, to head to where Yarne is. He recognizes it. He shouldn't be too hard to find. He can make it that far.]
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He should be asleep—he wants to be asleep in the relative safety of the dorm—but the growing pressure in his head is making sleep almost impossible. He browses the network on a whim, and sees the broadcast and watches it with concern and growing anxiety that's not his. He hasn't been as cut-off from the network as Yarne has been—knows about the growing revelations that maybe they're experiencing memories that aren't quite theirs, but that certainly doesn't change how he feels. He still has to sort through the implanted memories and decide what parts of what he remembers are real and what aren't. It's harder than it should be. Because some things he wants to be true. He doesn't want to remember a world on fire, because he's seen enough of that in his too-short childhood, but he does want to be able to remember having a mother—of searching and finding her again. He wants her to be his, because there's such a large part of him that remembers never having one. But it's becoming obvious that was pretty damn false too.
Part of Shinjiro—the part of him that's still completely himself—knows he should probably go out after him, since it's obvious now who has his memories. It's something he's dreaded for awhile. But he doesn't want to. It's dangerous. It's not safe out there and he knows it because he's been out there more nights than he can count. But he's also afraid of it, even if he understands that this fear of dying, of being the last one is a probably a foreign emotion, because it clashes with so many of the things he remembers.
But he makes himself get up. He exists out of the dorm like a shadow, to head to where Yarne is. He recognizes it. He shouldn't be too hard to find. He can make it that far.]