[And still is, really. It's different from the raw hurt he had felt directly after the Shadow fight, mixed with the very real pain from the battle itself. It's even a bit different from the ache he still felt as he dragged himself together again, urging the others to move into the new place as he attempted to distract them all, to exhaust them completely enough that they wouldn't have to think about it anymore.
Even now, he's not entirely certain how to deal with the situation. Having those secrets exposed, the secrets that even the highest of the Watchers were not privy to - people weren't even supposed to know he existed, much less anything about the Devil, or the Devil's cloned brother.
What is he even supposed to do at this point? Cling to the people he had befriended, even though there's a chance they'll have to deal with his death someday? Or just shove them away until they both hurt so much it wouldn't even matter?]
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[And still is, really. It's different from the raw hurt he had felt directly after the Shadow fight, mixed with the very real pain from the battle itself. It's even a bit different from the ache he still felt as he dragged himself together again, urging the others to move into the new place as he attempted to distract them all, to exhaust them completely enough that they wouldn't have to think about it anymore.
Even now, he's not entirely certain how to deal with the situation. Having those secrets exposed, the secrets that even the highest of the Watchers were not privy to - people weren't even supposed to know he existed, much less anything about the Devil, or the Devil's cloned brother.
What is he even supposed to do at this point? Cling to the people he had befriended, even though there's a chance they'll have to deal with his death someday? Or just shove them away until they both hurt so much it wouldn't even matter?]