You don't get it. There is no happy ending to this for him. When he finally dies, there will be no rest; there isn't, for vampires. He'll never grow any older like he wanted; he was murdered before that could happen... so that he'd stay how he is. Never age another day, and watch everyone around him die. He hates heights, and yet he's burdened with wings he never wanted.
[He tilts his head a bit at her, as though studying her.] Or haven't you noticed that he never flies anywhere?
Smiling regardless and pretending he's made peace with it all is what's kept him from breaking. Again, I mean. He tried that before, but Winnoc wouldn't let him put an end to it, and now he's managed to convince himself that no one would manage without him if he did.
There's only one thing to do to help, Aoi. He won't ever be happy, and I would gladly take what he doesn't want. Why can't you understand that?
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You don't get it. There is no happy ending to this for him. When he finally dies, there will be no rest; there isn't, for vampires. He'll never grow any older like he wanted; he was murdered before that could happen... so that he'd stay how he is. Never age another day, and watch everyone around him die. He hates heights, and yet he's burdened with wings he never wanted.
[He tilts his head a bit at her, as though studying her.] Or haven't you noticed that he never flies anywhere?
Smiling regardless and pretending he's made peace with it all is what's kept him from breaking. Again, I mean. He tried that before, but Winnoc wouldn't let him put an end to it, and now he's managed to convince himself that no one would manage without him if he did.
There's only one thing to do to help, Aoi. He won't ever be happy, and I would gladly take what he doesn't want. Why can't you understand that?