[That was....highly unexpected. That wasn't how the game went, Johnny teased Otoha and made advances and Otoha shut him down and nothing went anywhere.
Just as when Chris had kissed him (on the cheek that time but still) over a year ago, he was stunned into stillness for a second. The thought crossed his mind that he should stop Otoha and talk to him...but what would that get? What would he even say?
This all ran through his head in a flash and his hand chose form him, reaching out to grab Otoha's arm and stop him from getting too far.]
Otoha wait.
[His gaze shifts and lands on Desco. Normally, the sight and thought of her brought a smile to his face but, this time, all he could see were her eyes. They were the same color as another person's eyes, someone he refused to think about longer than necessary, and that reminder made him let go.
What if he did confront Otoha and what if they did finally say the right things to each other and it wasn't just teasing this time? What if it went somewhere? He couldn't let it get that far this time...if he did, he'd surely end up ruining one of the most important relationships he still had left; just as he had with every other relationship.
It was better if Otoha left, then Johnny couldn't hurt him.]
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Just as when Chris had kissed him (on the cheek that time but still) over a year ago, he was stunned into stillness for a second. The thought crossed his mind that he should stop Otoha and talk to him...but what would that get? What would he even say?
This all ran through his head in a flash and his hand chose form him, reaching out to grab Otoha's arm and stop him from getting too far.]
Otoha wait.
[His gaze shifts and lands on Desco. Normally, the sight and thought of her brought a smile to his face but, this time, all he could see were her eyes. They were the same color as another person's eyes, someone he refused to think about longer than necessary, and that reminder made him let go.
What if he did confront Otoha and what if they did finally say the right things to each other and it wasn't just teasing this time? What if it went somewhere? He couldn't let it get that far this time...if he did, he'd surely end up ruining one of the most important relationships he still had left; just as he had with every other relationship.
It was better if Otoha left, then Johnny couldn't hurt him.]
...Nevermind.
[And he turned and walked away, himself.]